if you just hold in your breath...

Things that I think as of 6/28/09... (in no particular order)

1) I need to try new foods. I went to Wegmans yesterday, and wow, they have a lot of things I've never even heard of before.
2) The whole argument that gay couples shouldn't be allowed to have kids and/or get married because people will be mean to their kids makes no sense. Yes, let's cater to the bigots among us. In the word(s) of Kate Gosselin, "HELLO!?"
3) ... and don't even get me started on the whole Jon and Kate thing. Well, I seem to have started myself, so can I just ask why we need to know the kids' reactions to the divorce? Some things really need to be kept private. *sends hugs to them* OH and this is so weird, when I was at Wegmans waiting to check out, one of the tabloids had pictures of Kate crying, something about her tears... and the cover of this particular one was wet. Like, water-dripping wet. Weird!
4) Making the dean's list makes me happy, especially when they send a fun little certificate that I can hang on the fridge.
5) I heart Phillies items, even when they are not playing so well. And I heart the team, of course.
6) I also heart my new adorable apron and matching oven mitts. Fun! Now if I can just learn how to cook... but even if I burn everything, at least I'll still look cool?
7) Everyone needs to STOP dying. Now it's Billy Mays! Sad!
8) I really like my story. It makes me happy. Because it is mostly done and I am just editing now, and I will have reached my goal of finishing it by the end of June! Yes! And I have a very creepy idea for my next one, and my mom was like, "You know I'm not going to read it, right?" Gracias, madre.
9) I want to get better at Spanish, and I want to learn sign language, too. I am planning on doing both of those things when I switch campuses (in January, thanks to my Praxis-passing skills! Yes!)
10) I have found ways to calm myself down, and I love it. I never want to feel like I used to feel ever again.

... and death from above is still a death

Things I have noticed:

... everyone is dying; mostly famous people, but other people, too. I hate it.

... the new Regina Spektor album is amazing, which is not a surprise, but... wow.

... I miss the days when I could eat without shoving medicine down my throat first... not like it helps...

... June is almost over! Yikes. And it just started to get warm... it felt like March for awhile. This is the first summer that I can remember where my air conditioner is still in the box.

... I hate drama at work. I hate the word drama, actually, which is probably something left over from my high school days when everyone was either causing drama or accusing others of causing it. I was in drama club, and I didn't hate that... I don't mind drama with a purpose. Thirty-and-forty-somethings gossiping, however, serve no purpose.

... I love Sephora...

... and because of my love for Sephora, I am poor now. Oops.


Oh, and not an observation, but a fact; I have another journal now, a friends-locked one that I can post private stuff on. But I am not abandoning this journal, so don't worry about that. And if you have a Livejournal, let me know so I can add you. Or, if anyone out there ever reads this... let me know that, too. I feel silly talking to myself... but there's nothing wrong with being silly, I suppose. =)

hip hip, hurray!

I PASSED (at least two-thirds of**) THE PRAXIS!!! By a lot!!! Now I can relax =)

**the writing portion involved an essay, so I have to wait for that to be scored. But I think I did well with that.


And later... I have more to say, on a far less lighter note. But I'm not in the mindset to tackle that right now.



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anywhere feels like home...

So you know how I really, really hate that cell phone stalker commercial? Well, I should hate it on principle alone... but I LOVE the Bacardi mojito commercial with those people dancing in all those different outfits. I typically hate alcohol commercials only slightly less than perfume commercials (because really, what does a bottle of perfume have to do with rolling around on a beach with some psuedo-sexy emaciated model person?) If alcohol commercials actually showed you what the product did, those people would be too drunk to dance, and they'd probably be passed out in a corner somewhere. But I do love vintage dresses...


My class is over, but work is just picking up. Summer reading club signups start tomorrow, so I get to start wearing my cute SRC shirts and carrying around my new elephant tote! Woohoo! It makes it a lot easier to decide what to wear in the morning...


Also, did you know that the new American Girl doll shares the same name as a terrorist? Not good, AG. We always have a few American Girl parties each summer, but I think we'll skip Rebecca. "Okay kids, here's how you commit arson!" And the craft could be drawing up your very own Most Wanted poster! No thanks...


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they didn't name me sarah for nothing

My boss said I looked like a princess today =)

i'm not unfaithful, but i'll stray...

I finished all three speeches! Go, me! And I totally got the weirdest topic for my last speech. We had to give a three-minute speech based on a prompt he gave us earlier in the class, and other people got stuff like what would you bring to a deserted island, or what is the best thing about being your gender. Well... I got a... different one. "If you could get plastic surgery, what would you get and why?" I was totally freaked out about it, but it ended up being really good for me. Dealing with things that make me uncomfortable always works out for the best in the end, so why do I always get so worried? It takes me a long time to tell how I feel about certain things, but once I start talking I just keep going and it feels so amazing. I felt so much better after I finished that speech. (And if you're curious, I said I would not get anything done, based on past experience.)

Good news: I've hung out with my high school friends twice this week, and they still love me and I love them for it. I need to stop expecting people to hurt me. They've proven by now that they would never intentionally do that. They are so awesome.

Bad news: My co-worker's son died. He was almost 40 and he never got there. He had cancer, and they had sent him home, saying there was nothing they could do... but he seemed like he had been doing well. He had custody of his teenage daughter. It's terrible...

Interesting news: I went to a Catholic elementary school graduation (not mine)... but oddly enough, a few of my old teachers were there! My seventh-grade science teacher recognized me, which seems odd so many years later. But I'm one of those people who reached my current height in sixth grade, so physically I didn't change as much as some people might have during that time period. And you know what? I thought the whole ceremony would make me all nostalgic and everything, and it did... but I just kept watching the parents and thinking, "I wish I had a kid." Weird, right? I DO want kids... but I don't think I will have my own. There are so many things that do not need to be passed on. And then I started thinking that if I did adopt a kid, I'd probably end up screwing it up... but I really do want kids. We'll see about that... I need to finish college first, anyway... and even then, I'll probably need some time...

it's catharsis time!

Yeah, I definitely underwent a mini-catharsis today. I wish I could have said how I felt.

Other random asides:

... I think my lips are getting bigger
... sappy music in TV shows annoys me
... how come whenever girls on TV shows hook up with someone, they always come into work (or wherever the other characters see them next) looking a not-so-hot mess!?!? And the guys never do. It's like, hello, we're the ones who have makeup...
... I love dancing with my co-workers, but I hate office gossip...
... having to wait an entire weekend plus a day to give my speech when I was supposed to go today makes me nervous/annoyed... (AND I wasted that green dress again!!! Hmmph. Black and white shift dress on Monday, I suppose.)

OH OH OH!!! I have tickets to see Salman Rushdie next month! Whoa. I need to find someone to go with me who doesn't think that Salman = fish spelled incorrectly.


I wish I knew why people liked me. I've been trying to figure it out for years, and sad to say, I haven't gotten any closer to figuring it out. I think I need a brain transplant.

add this to the list of things i never knew

So I'm researching for my speech on media bias in missing persons cases, and I come across none other than a website about... sneeze fetishes. Yes, some people get off on sneezing. And here I always found sneezing to be annoying and inconvenient. Who knew?

Okay, back to the speech, but I just had to share that...