i'm not unfaithful, but i'll stray...

I finished all three speeches! Go, me! And I totally got the weirdest topic for my last speech. We had to give a three-minute speech based on a prompt he gave us earlier in the class, and other people got stuff like what would you bring to a deserted island, or what is the best thing about being your gender. Well... I got a... different one. "If you could get plastic surgery, what would you get and why?" I was totally freaked out about it, but it ended up being really good for me. Dealing with things that make me uncomfortable always works out for the best in the end, so why do I always get so worried? It takes me a long time to tell how I feel about certain things, but once I start talking I just keep going and it feels so amazing. I felt so much better after I finished that speech. (And if you're curious, I said I would not get anything done, based on past experience.)

Good news: I've hung out with my high school friends twice this week, and they still love me and I love them for it. I need to stop expecting people to hurt me. They've proven by now that they would never intentionally do that. They are so awesome.

Bad news: My co-worker's son died. He was almost 40 and he never got there. He had cancer, and they had sent him home, saying there was nothing they could do... but he seemed like he had been doing well. He had custody of his teenage daughter. It's terrible...

Interesting news: I went to a Catholic elementary school graduation (not mine)... but oddly enough, a few of my old teachers were there! My seventh-grade science teacher recognized me, which seems odd so many years later. But I'm one of those people who reached my current height in sixth grade, so physically I didn't change as much as some people might have during that time period. And you know what? I thought the whole ceremony would make me all nostalgic and everything, and it did... but I just kept watching the parents and thinking, "I wish I had a kid." Weird, right? I DO want kids... but I don't think I will have my own. There are so many things that do not need to be passed on. And then I started thinking that if I did adopt a kid, I'd probably end up screwing it up... but I really do want kids. We'll see about that... I need to finish college first, anyway... and even then, I'll probably need some time...