however i smile, i smile the most

Happy birthday to me! Wow, 21. I seriously never thought I would make it this far. I remember back in high school, when I was probably 15 or 16, one of my friends asked me how long I would live to be, and I said 20. I thought there was no way I would make it past that. Well, I was wrong, and for the time being, I think that's a good thing. Lots of fun today-- casino, cake and family/friends. I will also probably never be able to make myself like alcohol. And you know what? Too bad. I'm having a little wine right now, and it's good, but not good enough to have another glass... nothing ever is. And I'm not going to force myself to drink just because other people think I should. I'm 21 now. I owe it to myself to be myself.