This is my 52nd entry. I had no idea that I had posted so much. I really think this blog has helped me, and as a mini-PSA, anyone out there reading this who doesn't have a blog of their own should get one. Or even just a regular, private journal. Writing down everything really helps, or at least it helps me. It's worth a try.
Today was so, so good. Except for the rain, but at least I had my hat. I love my hat and I will be sad when it's too hot to wear it (it's knitted.) But other things were good. I had an amazing conversation today that helped me to realize that it is so much better to get out of a bad situation than to force yourself to suffer through it... no matter what other people think. I desperately needed validation (bad, I know) and I finally got it. I can move on now. I can try.
I've also realized... if I was anywhere near as bad as I thought I was, I would be locked up by now. I am not a bad person and I need to start believing that. I am going to keep writing, and keep acting, and that will make me happy and I will get out of this. And I hope that someday, I will look back on all these years and wonder why I wasted them through my self-hatred. And it will all be behind me. It's already behind me.
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